Wednesday, December 11, 2013

What I Don't Have to Say

I keep wondering why I don't blog as much as I have in the past. I think it is partly because Facebook is faster and easier. Another big part is that I don't have much to say...and that is a good thing. When I started really doing some intense writing here, it was because I was navigating my way through this new world of parenting a child with Down syndrome. I had causes to support. I had beliefs to share. I had a mission of sorts...to let everyone know that we were going to be okay. The more I shared that, the more I felt it and believed it in my heart. Maybe I'm not blogging much anymore because I don't feel like I have to prove that we are okay. We really are okay.
Levi in his Bible class
I am not sad about any milestones Levi has yet to reach, because I am even prouder of the way he makes people feel and the way I see him light up people's eyes when they talk about him. I am not overwhelmed with all the doctor's appointments because the doctor's and nurses are also crazy about him, and I've become accustomed to the busy schedule that comes along with Levi's health issues. I am not worried about his future, because I am okay with whatever the future holds for us. I am not pushing complete independence for him in his adulthood because in all reality, he may always need some sort of support. That has taken a huge weight off my shoulders because I no longer feel like I am failing him if he can't do every single thing other people his age can do. It is just our reality, and it is okay. Each day I am with him, the more I want to hold on to him forever, anyway!

Lately we have been doing some home improvements and decorating. I have been having fun with trying to get my wardrobe updated, and have actually put some Pinterest ideas to use. I hope to make my blog more about me and add some variety. Maybe a few informational posts here and there like I used to do, but I want to break away from the mother-of-a-kid-with-Down-syndrome box. Maybe I'll blog more and feel less pressure to do what I've always done in this space.

Big brother is enjoying all things Christmas. I have been waking up to his conversations with Chip, his elf, and I am savoring the magic. We have a lot of fun ahead of us.

4 comments:

Theresa Plumley said...

It sounds like you have great faith in God and I commend you for that. You have two very handsome young boys.

Jenny said...

Ah, I could have written this post myself! I too find I no longer have much to say on Ds...And I no longer want to be a "Ds blog"...I don't write as often anymore and when I do it is usually little family updates. And it has a great deal to do with finding that peace.
I hope you continue to share little tidbits about your family here, and I look forward to reading more about you and whatever you choose to write about :)

Anna Theurer said...

I think that this is a common phenomenon--the not knowing what to write once our kids get a little older. I know that I am not writing as much anymore and now it is mostly about ADHD stuff because that is what is taking over right now! I look forward to reading more about what is going in your life and about the family!

Leah said...

Glad to see you on here!! :)